Thursday, October 9, 2014

I need to lose weight and I don't know how...

That's not true.  I know HOW to lose weight.  I have done it many, many times.  I know more about nutrition, exercise, and weight management than a lot of so-called experts.  I just can't stick to it.

Let's try that again.

I need to lose weight, and I can't do it alone.

I am not going to write this blog because I think that people will be interested in following my story.  They might, but that is not the point.  I am not going to do it under the guise that it will help other people.  It might, but again...

I am going to do this because I NEED help.  I am hoping that being public with my struggle will help me stay on track.  I need to know that everyone around me knows what I'm doing.   I'm not foolish enough to think that a lot of people will read this often, but I will know that anyone can read it at any time.  I'm just hoping that helps.

I will succeed.  I will also fail.  The only way to have more success than failure in your life is to respond to your failures with action.  I need accountability.  I have it in all the aspects of my life except one... what (and how much) I eat.

Even worse than not having accountability, is that I lie about food.  I am an honest person.  I try hard to be honest with my friends, my family, my colleagues, my business associates, and everyone else.  It's not easy.  No one is perfect and we all hide things from each other, but the one thing that I lie about often is food.  It started when I was a little kid, lying about how much I was eating, hiding food from my parents, eating when they weren't looking.  I have always eaten in secret.  I have done it in every relationship I've ever been in, including my failed marriage.  I was honest with my ex-wife about everything... everything but food.

In a way, I'm also lying to myself.  By hiding the way I eat from other people, I make myself believe that it's not as bad.  That's what I'm trying to do here.  I'm going to attempt to remove the veil of secrecy about what I eat so that there's no difference between eating alone and being watched.  If I tell you honestly in this blog what I eat and what I do everyday then it's the same as having someone watching me.

I'm not asking for your advice.  I'm not even asking for encouragement.  I just need one thing from anyone who actually reads this.  Read it.  Comment if you want, but that's not necessary.  Just be there on the other side of this and I'll try to do the rest.

Thank you.

Sincerely,
Less Fat Guy

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On Monday October 6th, 2014, I weighed 369.4 pounds.  I can't tell you what size pants I wear because they are not real pants with a zipper and a button and a size.  They have elastic and a drawstring.   My shirts are mostly XXXL.   I am going to start by counting calories with My Fitness Pal.  That's the first step.  If I can break the cycle of eating badly for one week, I will take it from there.  Today is Day 4 and I haven't broken down yet.  I'm eating around 2000 calories per day this week and I haven't eaten in a restaurant since Sunday, but I haven't had the energy to go to the gym yet either.  The weekend will be a challenge, but I will do my best.  No matter what, I need to be honest about it.


9 comments:

  1. I want to encourage you on your journey. Thanks for sharing your story with us.

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  2. I know exactly how you feel. I've been trying to lose weight for the past year. So far I've lost 10, it was 20 but some how 10 lbs found its way back. I've gone back to my old eating habits and my lazy ways. It's nice to know that I'm not the only one who struggles with my weight. I would just like to say, Good Luck.

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  3. I wish you the best on your journey. I know your struggle all too well. It has been a lifetime issue for me...up...and down...up...then up some more. Weight loss is the hardest thing to accomplish, but gives such a huge reward. The last couple of years have been really hard for me personally. Maybe your blog will help us gain encouragement from each other. You can do this!

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  4. You. Can. Do. It! =] Woot woot!

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  5. I started my healthy lifestyle journey back in May and have lost 13lbs so far. I understand your struggle with starting and stopping your healthy lifestyle. The key to my maintenance of my lifestyle is a book called Mini Habits. I recommend you read it, it is a short book. The book describes how to turn any change in lifestyle into a habit by making it a mini habit first and getting around the trap of using will power. I never would have thought in a million years I'd be working out at 4:30am every morning before work but I do now as a habit and it all started with a single push up every day. I created my habit by using Beachbody programs and I just purchased their Shakeology shake mix that I recommend checking out. I also recommend looking at Calotren from TopLoss.com. It is a collagen supplement and aids in weight loss and joint pain. Good luck Patrick and I hope you actually get to read this and try a few of these things that helped me make my lifestyle change permanent.

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  6. My wife started her weight loss journey at 254 lbs. She has lost over 50lbs doing what she doing(all natural- healthy eating & fitness) as well as helping many others reach their goals . I am so proud of her and I know she would love to help you. Here is her email if you want to contact her. Ladygettnfit@gmail.com Good luck!!

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  7. Firstly- thank you so much for being so brave and sharing your struggle with all of us.
    I, like millions of others also struggle with my weight- and I have for years. It is so admirable of you to put yourself out there for the world to see and follow. I can’t wait to watch your transformation and I truly hope that you find happiness in your journey.
    Thank you for allowing us to be a part of this with you!

    God Bless

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  8. I listen to your show every morning on my hour commute. I just want to say it take a man with HUG CAHONES to share this journey with all of us. I wish you much success and remember you get in life what you settle for.... you can do this!!!!!!

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