Let's try that again.
I need to lose weight, and I can't do it alone.
I am not going to write this blog because I think that people will be interested in following my story. They might, but that is not the point. I am not going to do it under the guise that it will help other people. It might, but again...
I am going to do this because I NEED help. I am hoping that being public with my struggle will help me stay on track. I need to know that everyone around me knows what I'm doing. I'm not foolish enough to think that a lot of people will read this often, but I will know that anyone can read it at any time. I'm just hoping that helps.
I will succeed. I will also fail. The only way to have more success than failure in your life is to respond to your failures with action. I need accountability. I have it in all the aspects of my life except one... what (and how much) I eat.
Even worse than not having accountability, is that I lie about food. I am an honest person. I try hard to be honest with my friends, my family, my colleagues, my business associates, and everyone else. It's not easy. No one is perfect and we all hide things from each other, but the one thing that I lie about often is food. It started when I was a little kid, lying about how much I was eating, hiding food from my parents, eating when they weren't looking. I have always eaten in secret. I have done it in every relationship I've ever been in, including my failed marriage. I was honest with my ex-wife about everything... everything but food.
In a way, I'm also lying to myself. By hiding the way I eat from other people, I make myself believe that it's not as bad. That's what I'm trying to do here. I'm going to attempt to remove the veil of secrecy about what I eat so that there's no difference between eating alone and being watched. If I tell you honestly in this blog what I eat and what I do everyday then it's the same as having someone watching me.
I'm not asking for your advice. I'm not even asking for encouragement. I just need one thing from anyone who actually reads this. Read it. Comment if you want, but that's not necessary. Just be there on the other side of this and I'll try to do the rest.
Less Fat Guy
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On Monday October 6th, 2014, I weighed 369.4 pounds. I can't tell you what size pants I wear because they are not real pants with a zipper and a button and a size. They have elastic and a drawstring. My shirts are mostly XXXL. I am going to start by counting calories with My Fitness Pal. That's the first step. If I can break the cycle of eating badly for one week, I will take it from there. Today is Day 4 and I haven't broken down yet. I'm eating around 2000 calories per day this week and I haven't eaten in a restaurant since Sunday, but I haven't had the energy to go to the gym yet either. The weekend will be a challenge, but I will do my best. No matter what, I need to be honest about it.